Christmas time is here...beauty everywhere...

Christmas is my most favorite time of year. Did you ever notice how many more people smile at you during the holiday season? This Christmas is a little bittersweet though. I had hoped that my mad dash through the stores on Black Friday would be for children's toys. I imagined Santa filling tiny stockings and eating the cookies I baked with a little one in the high chair next to me.

Have you ever turned all of the lights off in your house except the tree and just sat and stared at it? I do it every year. It is so beautiful, and merry. We have a cute star in the top that changes colors, and it always draws my eyes. Can you imagine what it was like for the wise men to look up into the sky and see a beautiful star shining down from heaven? Sometimes I wish I had a guiding star to follow everyday. A star that would lead me back to my heavenly home. It may sound silly but, we are always being reminded that life is short, especially compared to eternity. This life is just a tiny speck in the timeline of our existence. I don't want to waste the time I have on this earth with my children. I have had seven and a half years that I could have spent with them. I know, I know, 26 is still young blah blah blah... but everyday is a day lost that I could have spent with my babies. Anyway, I have another baby's birth to celebrate this season, so I'll try to focus on my Savior.

I've never really listened much to the song "I wonder as I wander", however Stephen wrote a trio for Adrienne and Kelly and I and that song is my part. I was singing it the other day and I realized, it's a beautiful song.

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die

For poor on'ry people like you and like I;

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

When Mary birthed Jesus 'twas in a cow's stall

With wise men and farmers and shepherds and all

But high from God's heaven, a star's light did fall

And the promise of ages it then did recall.

If Jesus had wanted for any wee thing

A star in the sky or a bird on the wing

Or all of God's Angels in heaven to sing

He surely could have it, 'cause he was the King

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die

For poor on'ry people like you and like I;

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

So, while you wander this Christmas season, ponder your Savior. Merry Christmas!

Short update

So, its been a while...I've had more homework that I ever thought possible in the last 7 weeks. Thanks goodness this is the last week of classes until January!

Cam and I had a great time decorating the house and putting up Christmas lights. Its so fun to drive up to the house all colorful and bright. :) We had a ton of fun spending the week of Thanksgiving in Utah with family. Getting back was nice too.

The Christmas show I'm in is coming up on Saturday and I'm practicing like crazy. It's going to be incredible! Then we hit the road Sunday to go to Idaho for Christmas.

The most frustrating thing going on is still adoption stuff. My doctor's office lost my physical form, so I made another appt. Then on Thursday this week they called to say they had found it. I have one more form to pick up and that's all of our paperwork. So, hopefully we'll get the inspection done by the end of January. Its been a little frustrating lately. I know I should just take apart the nursery, its sad to walk by it. But, I can't bring myself to do it. So many of my friends are parents or about to be, and I'm still waiting... I was really frustrated and upset the other day, so Cameron gave me a blessing. The Lord told me it was close, but that we still had more waiting to do. I'm trying not to let that get to me but... its bumming me out a little.

One good thing though, I made an appt with the infertility clinic for January 6th! My OB told me that they had a really really high success rate of getting people pregnant. So, we'll see. Either way, I just want to have a family.

Cam got offered a different position on the same campus with Cal State. He is VERY excited about it, and we're hoping they will be able to work out the change.

I'm trading calls with a woman who owns a dance studio in Concord, about teaching voice lessons there. So keep me in your prayers that it works out. It would be a huge blessing.

I hope everyone is enjoying their Christmas holiday. Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Kwanzaa! And all other seasonal wishes. lol!