Whining first...great news second.

So here goes the complaining. :) I called the radiology department on the day I started my cycle in December. However, it happened to be a Saturday, they were closed, so I left a message. Nobody called me back! Then I called at 5pm (they close at 5:30!) the next week and they were already closed. grrrr! By the time I got a hold of them, they were totally booked. I was so mad! The lady I spoke to was really helpful though, she booked me an appointment for next month, since I'm pretty regular, and I'll call when I start my cycle to see if it is within the right window. So I have to wait a little longer, but whats one more month after 7 years right?

We got all of our paperwork mailed to our social worker, but it turned out that one of my doctor's notes was not sufficient. So I have to get a new one. Then when she gets that she will mail the home study report to us to proof.

Ok GREAT NEWS!!!! I am now teaching voice lessons at a dance studio in Concord, Ca. Its soooooo wonderful! I love it there, and I love my new students. I'll tell you all about it in my next blog update, but its 12:30 am so I'm going to sleep. :)

Fertility update...hmmm weird title.

Well, we have finished gathering all of our paperwork for the adoption social worker. Now we just have to wait to set up our home inspection and that's it! Crazy right?

So, since that craziness is calming down, we decided to throw a little more into the mix. Right before we left for Christmas we went to see a fertility doctor. He was great!!!! He was really funny, and clear about things, and put us totally at ease.

step number one for Cam is to be retested (poor guy).

Step number two...of that's right, the rest is up to me! Argh!!

Step number one for me is an X-ray ink test. They will be inserting a tube in the ovary/uterine area (fun right?) and filling it with ink. This way, when they take the X-ray they can see if there are any blockages or anything out of the norm in the fallopian tubes and other areas.

If that's normal, step two is Clomid (not looking forward to those hot flashes...). He wants to double the dose I was on last time and try that for a couple of months. If that doesn't work, we'll add insemination to the mix.

Supposing we still have to luck, the next step is a fertility drug that starts with a G (I can never remember the name) that I have to take injections with (yuck!). Then possibly adding insemination.

If that doesn't work (and I haven't had a nervous break down), we'll talk about exploratory surgery and in-vitro or artificial insemination.

The best part is that I now have a clear plan. It such a relief to be able to know what direction I'm going in instead of floating around in the dark. The only part I'm struggling with is knowing that I have a whole lot of disappointment and ups and downs heading my way. Well, here goes... jumping off the cliff.

Christmas time is here...beauty everywhere...

Christmas is my most favorite time of year. Did you ever notice how many more people smile at you during the holiday season? This Christmas is a little bittersweet though. I had hoped that my mad dash through the stores on Black Friday would be for children's toys. I imagined Santa filling tiny stockings and eating the cookies I baked with a little one in the high chair next to me.

Have you ever turned all of the lights off in your house except the tree and just sat and stared at it? I do it every year. It is so beautiful, and merry. We have a cute star in the top that changes colors, and it always draws my eyes. Can you imagine what it was like for the wise men to look up into the sky and see a beautiful star shining down from heaven? Sometimes I wish I had a guiding star to follow everyday. A star that would lead me back to my heavenly home. It may sound silly but, we are always being reminded that life is short, especially compared to eternity. This life is just a tiny speck in the timeline of our existence. I don't want to waste the time I have on this earth with my children. I have had seven and a half years that I could have spent with them. I know, I know, 26 is still young blah blah blah... but everyday is a day lost that I could have spent with my babies. Anyway, I have another baby's birth to celebrate this season, so I'll try to focus on my Savior.

I've never really listened much to the song "I wonder as I wander", however Stephen wrote a trio for Adrienne and Kelly and I and that song is my part. I was singing it the other day and I realized, it's a beautiful song.

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die

For poor on'ry people like you and like I;

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

When Mary birthed Jesus 'twas in a cow's stall

With wise men and farmers and shepherds and all

But high from God's heaven, a star's light did fall

And the promise of ages it then did recall.

If Jesus had wanted for any wee thing

A star in the sky or a bird on the wing

Or all of God's Angels in heaven to sing

He surely could have it, 'cause he was the King

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

How Jesus the Saviour did come for to die

For poor on'ry people like you and like I;

I wonder as I wander out under the sky

So, while you wander this Christmas season, ponder your Savior. Merry Christmas!

Short update

So, its been a while...I've had more homework that I ever thought possible in the last 7 weeks. Thanks goodness this is the last week of classes until January!

Cam and I had a great time decorating the house and putting up Christmas lights. Its so fun to drive up to the house all colorful and bright. :) We had a ton of fun spending the week of Thanksgiving in Utah with family. Getting back was nice too.

The Christmas show I'm in is coming up on Saturday and I'm practicing like crazy. It's going to be incredible! Then we hit the road Sunday to go to Idaho for Christmas.

The most frustrating thing going on is still adoption stuff. My doctor's office lost my physical form, so I made another appt. Then on Thursday this week they called to say they had found it. I have one more form to pick up and that's all of our paperwork. So, hopefully we'll get the inspection done by the end of January. Its been a little frustrating lately. I know I should just take apart the nursery, its sad to walk by it. But, I can't bring myself to do it. So many of my friends are parents or about to be, and I'm still waiting... I was really frustrated and upset the other day, so Cameron gave me a blessing. The Lord told me it was close, but that we still had more waiting to do. I'm trying not to let that get to me but... its bumming me out a little.

One good thing though, I made an appt with the infertility clinic for January 6th! My OB told me that they had a really really high success rate of getting people pregnant. So, we'll see. Either way, I just want to have a family.

Cam got offered a different position on the same campus with Cal State. He is VERY excited about it, and we're hoping they will be able to work out the change.

I'm trading calls with a woman who owns a dance studio in Concord, about teaching voice lessons there. So keep me in your prayers that it works out. It would be a huge blessing.

I hope everyone is enjoying their Christmas holiday. Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Kwanzaa! And all other seasonal wishes. lol!

Adoption Update

Well, Cameron had his interview Friday. It went really well. I couldn't believe it when he was done in an hour and forty-five minutes! But then...I told them it would go fast, Cameron's family is pretty normal. lol. Our social worker said she was planning on approving us. Yay! She was really impressed with our ideas for parenting and discipline. She liked that we had thought it out so much and she liked our approach. That was comforting. So the next step is to finish her report on us. She has been writing as we went so she said it shouldn't be too long. Two weeks at the most. Then we'll proof the report to make sure the factual stuff is right. Then she sends it to her boss who approves it and then it goes to the county. Then the county will sent up an appointment to do the actual home inspection for safety and stuff. After that, we are actually done!!!! Wohooo! It will probably be another 4-6 weeks, but that's not bad!

So now Cameron and I are going to get focused on getting the house ready for the inspection. The list is HUGE! It is a little intimidating but, we'll take it one step at a time. I have a friend with a 2yr old, so after we're done, I'll let him loose and see if anything needs to be moved. lol!

CUbs vs. Giants

Cubs/Giants game. We wiped the floor with 'em!
Can you believe how many Cubs fans there were?!?!? It was awesome!!


FUKUDOME!!!!

More Thriller

Cameron and Lorena Bobbit do the "Scissors" LOL!



The Zombies







This was projected on wall. Cool huh?